Like most people when I started showing signs of ill mental health I went to the doctor. I didn’t really know much about what was going on or what I should do (I was only 16 at the time and no one had spoken to me about it before).
To treat symptoms of anxiety (as it was classed at the time) the Dr gave me beater blockers. As he was a Dr I took them. He didn’t tell me what they did or what they were for or if there were any side effects.
When i started having a bad reaction to them I stopped taking then. Reluctant as I was to go against the Dr my friends convinced me they were not the best thing.
For a few years after that I tried managing without meds and with the help of therapy I was doing ok.
When I had another down fall and I was again given drugs to deal with it. Not in a stable frame of mind I took them without question. I lost a number of days on them which promoted me to stop taking them aswell.
Needless to say it wasn’t long before I was on pills again. I had tried to do without them and failed. I was reluctant at first and after 6 months of trial and error I found ones that work for me.
I’ve been on them now for 5 years. The idea of ever coming off them terrifies me. I don’t want to go back to that dark place.
The same can be said about trying a new pill as the journey to get here was more horrifying than I can describe.
My advice to anyone considering medication is to ask questions. If you can’t do it on your own take someone to the appointments that can. It’s your body and you should be comfortable about what goes in it.
Whether you chose to medicate or not it’s your choice. Trial and error is ok as well. It is whatever works for you.